"I don't think so," he breathes, easy to forget he can be so easily changeable whenever he desires to be. "But I can probably undo it, if need be."
Deacon shifts slightly, his weight resting carefully atop Danse for the moment. "It's like something comes over me when we're together..." he starts, "Urges. Feelings. More intense than they have any right to be. Like I'm feeling them for both of us."
It's the best way he can explain the pact bond between them without having the right understanding or vocabulary for it. He knows it's something to do with their powers though, because it's too intense to not be, and the pull of the moon has come to be a very specific feeling to Deacon.
He nuzzles against Danse's face again, resting there until his breathing returns to normal. "For the record though, it's fucking hot from this side, too."
It's quicker, sharper, more vehement than Danse even expects it to be, let alone means for it to be. But the very thought of Deacon moving--leaving him empty, bereft, even if he's still right there--makes Danse tighten his grip, arms holding him right there in place with that possessive wolf-strength, knees giving his sides a stern don't you dare squeeze before letting go to try and find the most comfortable position to stay in this exact spot for the next half-hour.
(That position involves turning partway onto his side, just a bit, the better to nuzzle into the curve of Deacon's neck and rest on his shoulder.)
It's enough to know Deacon could use his powers to separate them early if an emergency made it necessary. That doesn't mean Danse wants him to do it for anything short of another cyborg attack. Deacon's weight atop him is easy, only heavy enough to feel like the deep comfort of a weighted blanket, and Danse finds himself letting his body go slack again in order to be a better and softer mattress for him, guided by the sense-memory of doing it for Jane Doe last time. His hand reaches up to massage softly and soothingly at Deacon's scalp with the pads of his fingers.
"Do you remember where we were when you first arrived? That valley with all of the bizarre...gravity issues. Do you remember how we could hear each other's thoughts? I don't know why I would still be able to do that, though. We must be hundreds or thousands of miles from there by now."
Deacon grunts, his hips jolting forward as if he could push himself deeper in response to the demanding way that Danse responds. He wouldn't have changed unless Danse had asked him to, but the possessiveness is enough to turn him on all over again.
"God," he breathes, murmuring against Danse's ear, "Remind me to find something on our next city trip to keep me from leaking out of you..." An unlikely find, sure, but he can fantasize. Especially once they're relaxed and comfortable and Deacon can look over Danse dreamily while he reminds him of his first arrival.
"...Actually, I nearly forgot about that until you mentioned it. Maybe it was never the place, and it's just something you can do."
The concept concerns him, because there are still things that Deacon would be worried about Danse finding in his thoughts. Things he hasn't told him yet out of respect for a previous version of his' wishes.
"Share that sort of thing all you want in bed, but promise me you won't go rooting around in my head until I've gotten to at least warn you of all the mess you'll find."
An unlikely fantasy, but one that makes Danse's skin flood with heat and color, drawing in a quick shivering breath at the mere suggestion. If he were even a fraction less thoroughly spent right now, he'd be hardening again already at the mental image of going about his day with Deacon's come still bound up safe inside him, where Danse can feel it and think of him with every step and shift.
The desire and affection and trust inherent in that proposal are what make that next warning feel all the more incongruous, in a way. Danse has been nuzzling deeper into Deacon's neck, kissing the sweat away from it in eager unspoken agreement to the previous idea, but at this, he pulls back to look into those blank gray eyes again.
"I didn't even do that to you then," he reminds Deacon, with mild but sincere offense. "You can't think I would be more likely to do it without permission now."
After a moment, though, he feels like he needs to elaborate, though the offense is smoothed over again with another soft, pensive kiss to the underside of Deacon's jaw. "Part of that is because I trust that you'd tell me if there was something important, though." What qualifies as 'important' here, even Danse isn't really sure, but he supposes he'd know it if he heard it.
"I know, I know..." he sighs in defeat, petting reassuringly at Danse's hair. "It's not even you. The last big lore drops weren't given with either of our consents, I just-"
Deacon sighs again, clearly struggling with this. It's been so long since he's been this close to anyone, let alone physically. His head tips up and he kisses Danse's forehead, starting again after clearing his throat.
"I trust you," he breathes warmly, "There's just a lot I still feel like I should tell you; too much to dump on you all at once... and I just don't want you to find out because I didn't get to share it on my own." His expression is mildly pouty as he pulls back enough to look at Danse again. "I'm sorry. Maybe we're back here for a reason. A second chance..."
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Deacon shifts slightly, his weight resting carefully atop Danse for the moment. "It's like something comes over me when we're together..." he starts, "Urges. Feelings. More intense than they have any right to be. Like I'm feeling them for both of us."
It's the best way he can explain the pact bond between them without having the right understanding or vocabulary for it. He knows it's something to do with their powers though, because it's too intense to not be, and the pull of the moon has come to be a very specific feeling to Deacon.
He nuzzles against Danse's face again, resting there until his breathing returns to normal. "For the record though, it's fucking hot from this side, too."
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It's quicker, sharper, more vehement than Danse even expects it to be, let alone means for it to be. But the very thought of Deacon moving--leaving him empty, bereft, even if he's still right there--makes Danse tighten his grip, arms holding him right there in place with that possessive wolf-strength, knees giving his sides a stern don't you dare squeeze before letting go to try and find the most comfortable position to stay in this exact spot for the next half-hour.
(That position involves turning partway onto his side, just a bit, the better to nuzzle into the curve of Deacon's neck and rest on his shoulder.)
It's enough to know Deacon could use his powers to separate them early if an emergency made it necessary. That doesn't mean Danse wants him to do it for anything short of another cyborg attack. Deacon's weight atop him is easy, only heavy enough to feel like the deep comfort of a weighted blanket, and Danse finds himself letting his body go slack again in order to be a better and softer mattress for him, guided by the sense-memory of doing it for Jane Doe last time. His hand reaches up to massage softly and soothingly at Deacon's scalp with the pads of his fingers.
"Do you remember where we were when you first arrived? That valley with all of the bizarre...gravity issues. Do you remember how we could hear each other's thoughts? I don't know why I would still be able to do that, though. We must be hundreds or thousands of miles from there by now."
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"God," he breathes, murmuring against Danse's ear, "Remind me to find something on our next city trip to keep me from leaking out of you..." An unlikely find, sure, but he can fantasize. Especially once they're relaxed and comfortable and Deacon can look over Danse dreamily while he reminds him of his first arrival.
"...Actually, I nearly forgot about that until you mentioned it. Maybe it was never the place, and it's just something you can do."
The concept concerns him, because there are still things that Deacon would be worried about Danse finding in his thoughts. Things he hasn't told him yet out of respect for a previous version of his' wishes.
"Share that sort of thing all you want in bed, but promise me you won't go rooting around in my head until I've gotten to at least warn you of all the mess you'll find."
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The desire and affection and trust inherent in that proposal are what make that next warning feel all the more incongruous, in a way. Danse has been nuzzling deeper into Deacon's neck, kissing the sweat away from it in eager unspoken agreement to the previous idea, but at this, he pulls back to look into those blank gray eyes again.
"I didn't even do that to you then," he reminds Deacon, with mild but sincere offense. "You can't think I would be more likely to do it without permission now."
After a moment, though, he feels like he needs to elaborate, though the offense is smoothed over again with another soft, pensive kiss to the underside of Deacon's jaw. "Part of that is because I trust that you'd tell me if there was something important, though." What qualifies as 'important' here, even Danse isn't really sure, but he supposes he'd know it if he heard it.
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Deacon sighs again, clearly struggling with this. It's been so long since he's been this close to anyone, let alone physically. His head tips up and he kisses Danse's forehead, starting again after clearing his throat.
"I trust you," he breathes warmly, "There's just a lot I still feel like I should tell you; too much to dump on you all at once... and I just don't want you to find out because I didn't get to share it on my own." His expression is mildly pouty as he pulls back enough to look at Danse again. "I'm sorry. Maybe we're back here for a reason. A second chance..."